Forcing Myself to do Something
Dear stress, it’s been a while. But I gotta say, I didn’t miss you much.
I’ve finally figured it out: when I’m stressed I refuse to do anything productive. It’s like I go from running around crazily & typing at 500 words a minute, to absolutely – nothing.
And what happens when I force myself to do whatever it is I’m supposed to be doing, it turns into a bit of a disaster. Even writing now, usually I don’t have any problem at all coming up with things to say, but it’s taken me about 4 minutes to come up with all this.
Stuff that’s caused me to shut down:
Media studies project
Editing / going through billions of pictures for everyone
My media assignment – if I can even hand that in still
After school stuff, ie. dance, auditions, choir stuff, ect.
And of course my mom being on my back about getting everything done.
I did have a brief break on Sunday, to go Christmas shopping, and go back to the place where my dad died to drop off poinsettias. If you read one of my previous posts, I mentioned that he died on the 21st of December 2008, so this time of year kinda sucks to begin with.
Anyway, I don’t really know what the point of this was, other then just me forcing myself to do something other then watching tv & playing games. But that’s pretty much it.