Just one of Those Days

Ever had one of those days, when nothing really seems to be going your way ?

For example, you wake up with intentions to take a shower only to find out that someone already had that idea, go to put on your new deoderant and find out that the spinny thing at the bottom doesn’t push it up, read your email that says you ordered 3 items from a website totaling at $60 when you only ordered one thing, go to class and the professor isn’t there until an hour after class technically started, then one person in class askes you something that has been brought up/talked about a million times before by multiple people.

Well yeah, that’s basically been my morning – and to top it all off, it’s monday morning.
I don’t have these kind of days often, I tend to look on the brighter side of life and just put my problems with it behind me, but today I honestly just can’t.

One good thing is, things are getting dealt with in terms of my classes. Or at least they’re supposed to be soon. And I suppose semester break is comming up relativly soon, so yay. (:

For now, I think I’m going to go for a walk (not quite as peacefull as a walk back home would be, but a walk none the less).

Toodles for now ♥


College Rant (& I need a hug)

Okay, I haven’t ranted in a while, so I figured it might help at the moment.
So here’s the deal, I’m studying photography at mohawk college, it’s the first year that the program has ran, and basically, I’m not happy. I’ve been patient, since it is the first year that the program has ran, I’ve given this program and its teachers some slack, but even now that everything is set up and running smoothly, we’re still not accomplishing anything. We come to class, expect to stay for the 3 hours it says on our schedual, we’re givin another project with no advice, and 20 minutes into class we’re let go. If I wanted to be doing that, I would’ve just gotten a job instead of paying to ‘learn’. I didn’t really mind this at first, but “yay short classes” quickly turned into “okay, now I want to do something else”. Now I’m not saying we haven’t done anything, but what we have done feels like we’ve done it a million times.

For the most part, everything I already know about taking pictures and editing I’ve either taught myself or been taught through examples, trial and error. I feel like I’m not learning anything by just being told “do this, this and this and voila”. Maybe it’s just because it’s not what I’m used to doing, but whatever the reason, I don’t like it.

Its been hard enough adjusting to living on my own, being away from my friends, family and boyfriend back home, and I really gotta say, so far it hasn’t been worth being away from all of them. Yes I’ve made friends here, and to be honest they’ve been the main reason that I wouldn’t mind staying here longer. Its kind of been like summer camp; it’s nice to get away for a little while and meet new people, but after too long you just get tired and want to go home to the ones you know and love.

I guess in conclusion, I have no idea what I want to do anymore – but I know I could sure use a hug and a familiar face.

ps. is there such thing as a pre-mid life crisis?

A Hurt Ear and The Simple Life.

Why am I awke right now ? Easy, my ear hurts.
My boyfriend and I put mini spacers in on saturday so I’d blame it on that, but it’s the inside part that’s hurting (if that’s still somehow related, I don’t know).
There’s one thing that you may not know about me, is that I’m the biggest worryier on the face on the planet. Weather there’s one reason to be scared of something hurting of if there’s 100, I’ll be parinoid untill the last pain goes away. Well let me tell you, since september its been one fun year as far as different aches and pains go. My stomach cramped randomly apparently for no reason said the doctors, my heart felt like it’s fluttering (no, not the mushy romantic feeling either), just last week my face (sinuses) felt like someone had dropped a bag of bricks on it, my head’s randomly felt like it was going to explode because of the pain, and now this. I’ve never felt more parinoid and like I’m falling appart then I do now.

Recently I’ve just felt like just giving up on life and lying in bed, cuddling up with Mark (my boyfriend) for a couple days, or at least have a break and get away from the big city for a little while. Too bad life just isn’t that simple. You need money to have a room, and a bed, a blanket, a car, somewhere else to stay, and in order to get that money it requires you to do something other than just laying in bed and enjoying the little things around you. I wish that’s how we could live life.

It’s kinda funny what a hurting ear and being tired and parinoid can lead you to think about. If only I could write my reports this easily.
As for ranting about my program here at college, I’ll save that for another day.

Slightly Depressing Update.

Hello there, just thought I’d give a little update.
Things at college have been awesome lately, things outside of that, well, they’ve been better.

Lately I’ve been a little home sick, kinda like it was in France, but here at least they speak in english. I guess that’s why it’s taken a little bit longer to set in. Now don’t get me wrong, I love life on my own, college, and the friends I’ve made here so far, but it’s just a big change. I’ve lived in the same house my entire life until now, I’ve always had at least one of my parents by my side, and I’ve always had a decent sized group of friends. It’s a little weird looking back, cause come to think of it, I’ve never really had to make my own friends. My first friend in preschool came up to me and flat out asked if I wanted to be friends, to which I said okay. Since then friends have come into my life through current friends, and others left; that’s just the way it’s always been. I’m not saying I’m not making any friends (as hard as it may be to believe, I am), I’m just saying that it’s weird not having at least one person that was here before. I think the only friends I’ve even seen in the last month are Mark & Rachel ♥.

Long story short, I’m kinda starting to miss life living in the middle of nowhere and everything that came with it, especially the friends who I got to see almost every day. Though I guess with every new beginning, some things get left behind.

Ps. We get a week off school sometime in October, so naturally I’m gonna go visit W.O, just a heads up 🙂

Toodles for now ♥

Tales from the Big City

While I’ve still been getting used to life in the city, I’ve stumbled upon a couple things to talk about, other then “hey a cow was walking around on the football field today”. Don’t get me wrong those stories are awesome too, but seeing as I’m a ‘small town in the middle of nowhere’ girl, the city and college have been fairly amusing, at least to me.

1. So last night, one of my roommates and I went on a bus adventure; long stroy short, we got lost. But once we finally got on the right bus back home (around 9pm), an older man who was carrying a shopping bag got on the bus. A couple minutes passed, and he reached in his bag, pulled out a can of beer, and proceded to drink it. Now I know I’m still ajusting to the city life, so I must ask, is that something that I should get used to? I mean I’ve taken the subway in Paris France, and believe me, some of the people over there managed freak me out and they weren’t even talking in english, but this was new.

2. In one of my classes, the teacher (Gerry) likes to ask a lot of questions and make jokes, and a lot of the time the class isn’t all that responsive. He then responded with “what is it anal tuesday or something?”.

3. We watched this in class http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=u_AGsCUzroQ (same teacher).

4. English prof: I have A.D.D as you might figure out, but it can be fun sometimes hey look squirrel.
Nuff said.

5. There’s an ice cream truck ! 😀

So I’m probably forgetting a bunch of random moments too, but I’m sure you get the point. And if anyone in my classes feels the need to remind me of any of those moments, feel free to comment.

Toodles for now ♥

Greetings From my New Home

Oh hello there, it’s been a while.
You probably haven’t heard much from me in a while, but I have a reason for that. While I’ve been enjoying my summer, hanging out with a few friends here and there, I’ve been moving; from this little place in the middle of nowhere, to Hamilton. Not only is this me moving out on my own, but this is the first time that I’ve moved – ever.

There’s been many times at home that I’ve wished I could just leave and get out, and for a while I could, just disapearing to Mark’s (my boyfriend’s) house. But now all of the sudden that place is changing, and I can’t just come back home the next morning. I’ve been excited about moving out, getting away from all the rules of home, and now suddenly, here I am. Yes, I’m away from the rules, but with that I’m away from 99% of the friends I’ve made the rest of my life, and Mark, who I’ve spent practically every day of the summer with. Needless to say, it’s a huge change, and I’ve only been here for a little less then an hour. Now, I meantioned that I’m away from 99% of my friends, so here with me I have Vikki. She is one of my friends from dance, and little did I know, that our parents were friends when we were smaller too, so yep, I at least have her to help me through the beginning, as well as some of the ups and downs that come with moving out.

Well, I’ve run out of things to talk about, and the only other thing I have to do at the moment is to find out where I’m supposed to get my computer programs for class and to put away the laundry hamper of food my mom sent me, but I suppose that can wait for the morning. Instead, I’m going to go catch up on some of the youtube videos I haven’t watched due to moving.

Toodles (:

Ps. did I mention I got a new laptop ?
Pps. you may have noticed, my new laptop doesn’t do spelling correct on wordpress, not yet anyway 😛

Just a Couple of Things

I know I know, I haven’t blogged in a while, but I’ve discovered a couple of things. Not things that are long enough to get their own blog post, and so, here they are all bunched together.

1. I’ve had dreams where I win a lot of money, wake up, and discover that I no longer have that money (damn). But what I’d rather have from my dreams are the pictures I take. Come to think of it, that sounds kind of ‘deep’. Though the real reason I wish I could do this was because I had a dream, that I met with a youtube celebrity. Not all too deep.

2. For a while I haven’t been the biggest fan of growing up, and more or less kept looking back on my past, and realizing how much I miss it. Well, recently one of my friends who I’ve known probably since the good ol’ Wilmot Senior days, got married. It was a nice feeling actually knowing what all the inside jokes were about, and getting to laugh along with those in the bridal party. Moral of the story, I’ve learned that growing up isn’t all bad; there’s at least a few things to look forward too, like marriage.

3. I’m moving soon ! And with that, I’ve picked out my timetable (not that I had any choice as to what time I wanted to go to what class), paid my tuition, still have a room, and have started moving some things, two major things that are left: buy a laptop & buy books. So in case you care, my schedule goes a little something like this:
8am: Image inspiration
2pm: Business of photography

10:30am: Light & colour

1pm: Fundamentals of digital photography
4pm: Language

11am: Motion photography basics

8am: Language
10am: Intro to editing software

Which is a grand total of 18 hours a week.

And on that note, I’ve now ran out of things to say.
So, Toodles ^^ ♥

Ps. sorry I haven’t been blogging a whole lot lately, if I did, it would go something like ‘I wish I had something to do besides play games & watch tv, so basically I wish I had a car to go with my license’ type thing.

So like I said before, toodles (:

A Little Bit of Make-up and Not Enough Time.

Picking a college (or university) is kind of like picking what make-up you want from the store. (if there are any guys reading this, no this mostly won’t be about make-up, so please, keep reading).

Picking up make-up you assume that once your outside you will tan, and thus not be so much of a lighter shade any more, and so, you pick up a shade in between what you are now, and what you think you will be come the summer (or maybe that’s just me). As for how this ties into deciding a post-secondary school, its pretty much the same concept. You pick the school you like the most at the time, and think will be a good choice for the duration of your time there.

Well here’s the thing – I stink at picking out make-up; I currently have two bottles of it that are still too dark for my skin, and it’s practically the middle of summer. And at the moment, I’m kind of wondering if the same thing runs true for picking out colleges.

You see, today I received a letter from the college that I had initially planned on going to. After a while, it got close to the due date of picking which place I would go to, and so not hearing back from that college, I picked somewhere else assuming that they weren’t planning on accepting me. The letter I received today from the college I wanted to get into stated that I had got in. And now, I’m thrown way off.

I have a place in Hamilton practically across the street from the college that I accepted at, I’ve been paying rent for it since April, and I pretty much had everything planned out for going there.

At the place that I just got accepted to, I like the course a lot better then the one in Hamilton, and I would be doing a lot more then just photography. Only thing is, I don’t have a place, and would figure out what to do with my Hamilton house.

Oh, and did I mention that the letter says I have until tomorrow to decide ?


One Week Later

First off, this feels kind of weird, just writing for the fun of it instead of for class.

So, it’s been a little over a week since my only exam, and living in the middle of nowhere without a car isn’t the most fun I’ve ever had, as hard as that may be to believe. I’ve spent most of my time on the computer or watching tv, when there’s still a bunch of things that I could be doing instead. There’s:
1. Cleaning my room
2. Cleaning my closet
3. Doing laundry
4. Working
5. Starting to pack for September
6. Laptop searching for September
7. Paying my fees for school next year (I guess I could have just summed most of that up with college stuff)

and there’s probably other stuff that I’m leaving out.
At the moment, I’ve had about 3 hours of sleep, but my body won’t let me go back to sleep – so I guess I could put that on my list of things to do.

8. Sleep

So, that’s kind of it.
Sorry about my lack of having anything too interesting to talk about.

Toodles ♥

Doug Fischer Memorial Park

Saturday (June 11th) was the official opening for the new baseball diamonds in New Dundee. As mentioned in the title, it was named Doug Fischer Memorial Park. For those of you who don’t know who this is, Doug is my dad, who passed away in December 2008.

Being at the opening felt a lot like a reunion of some sort, being hugged by people I hardly remember, and running around saying hi to those who I recognized. I guess this goes to show just how much sense of community there really is in this small little town I call home.

Here’s a little back story: My dad was a baseball player for most of his life until his vision was taken away by cancer, and since he couldn’t play, he then coached others.
“for years Doug fought to have new ball diamonds built in New Dundee. He was very passionate about it and never missed an opportunity to promote his vision. A few months after Doug passed away, there was a funding opportunity available from various government levels for “shovel-ready” projects. An application was submitted to build two new ball diamonds and to upgrade the park where the former diamonds were. The application was approved late in June 2009; we found out about it just days before we buried Doug.”

So on Saturday at one point during the opening, they had both my grandpa and myself throw the “opening pitch”. Well, let’s just say that it’s been a while since I’ve even held a baseball, and when I played baseball, I never pitched. And while my aim was a bit off, my grandpa threw the ball after me, and definalty made up for my lack of aim and impressiveness.

So in all, I’m very proud to have been a part of this event with my family & friends. I just wish my dad could have been around to see it all come together. ♥

And on that note, here are some pictures

The Sign


The Sign

Getting ready to throw the opening pitches

My "pitch"

Grandpa's pitch

My family

Donation names

Committee people, and me

My mom & I by the sign

May many memorable games be played here.